it's you that keeps me sane

My friends hear me talk about Anarbor non stop. It probably gets tiring but ive never told them why i like them so much. They are my inspiration. I know it seems kind of opposite with who you see me as in school. Swearing and drinking?! hahaha not Priscilla! hahaha i dont do those things but its the idea that i would never that is stuck in everyones mind.

I have been sheltered all my life. Never even allowed to play outside until my parents came home because “it’s dangerous.” Yeah, Clinton is dangerous, its not like everyone knows each other… Being the youngest, it gets even worse and always being compared to the older siblings. Never able to be an individual. The Priscilla you see in school is just another shadow. That Priscilla is the one that has to be good and never get into trouble or talk back.

Sometimes exactly sure what i like about Anarbor. I just know that im drawn to their music. No matter what the mood, Anarbor is there. Being that i am a musician myself, i respect their musicianship. If anyone has ever even heard their songs, they would get it. Just try listening to one song over and over again, but choosing different instruments to follow throughout. It just boggles me the way everything comes together.

They are the band that makes me want to go into music. They love what they do and i want that feeling. I dont want to look back thinking what wouldve happened if i went for it, if i tried. There have been way too many of those.

I feel like if Anarbor wasnt in my life right now, i would still be searching for something i couldnt pinpoint.

There is a hole in my heart and i know where its from
The worries of wondering who ill become
And not only that will deepen the hole
The loss of a love just taking its toll

i love biochemistry and would like to study it but nothing compares to my love of music. to be able to play instruments is great to me but i dont want it to stop there. i dont want to go to college and have to have music on the side because there is time being spent on academics. and even if there was time, i dont want anything else in the way of it. even though it does sound opposite, i love playing in front of people and seeing them enjoy it. maybe its the limited resources around me that make it difficult for me to choose.

when i went to a concert on sunday, i could see the happiness and joy of the performers. they loved what they did and couldnt think of any other way of going on with their lives. i know its not the time and maybe a little late to choose but i feel the same way the performers feel when they play. i dont know what is right for me now, but hopefully the path before me will clear up

I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid, I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares, cause I’m alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight…

so i was just looking in the item when i come upon an editorial called “Editorial R-E-S-P-E-C-T” i was thinking oh, this could be interesting then the first sentence starts off about skateboarders. in the end, its saying how skateboarders should stop yelling obscenities and to be respectful to the people who actually go to the park. im am fuming right now just thinking about how ridiculous it is. i am not part of that group that yells bad things, i dont even say bad things quietly! i just feel that your insulting me all because of dumb people who dont know how to be respectful. every single time Emily and I went skateboarding, we were always polite to the people who were around, we always said hi, and we never yelled or got in the way. dont start generalizing skateboarders with every person who skateboards in clinton. dont compare me to the rude people because if you actually knew other skateboarders, your editorial wouldnt be necessary

yesterday i was thinking about the people i hangout with and the people who i just talk to. with this, i noticed that a majority of the people i talk to are younger than me. i mean there are a few exceptions like Emily, but there aren’t that many. Paige, Katie, Haley, and Jasmine are some young peeps and its so funny how i talk to them. and i mean this in a good way. i feel like some people who are my age are so full of themselves. the younger people i do know dont even care and it bring such positivity into my life. it could be that i like you guys better but its just funny how your younger. thanks for being there!

hahahahah oh jeez. it just makes me laugh when she talks to you or when her friends and your friends try to set you guys up together. i can already tell the outcome. this happens to way too many youngsters. so naive. hahaha i mean go for it but we all know whats going to happen. its a cycle that always seems to happen. hahah oh yeah, and she doesnt even like the things that you like. im just saying. you’re going to look back when you’re in your a senior, you’ll look back and think the same thing im thinking…

1. Hey Arnold

2. Kablam

3. Pinky and the Brain

4. The Wild Thornberries

5. Jimmy Neutron

6. The Nickelodeon game shows

7. CatDog

8. Angry Beaver

9. Aaahh! Real Monsters

10. My Life as a Teenage Robot

<3

1. Spiderman (1, 2, and 3)

2. Fantastic Four

3. Across the Universe

4. Dazed and Confused

5. Watchmen

6. X-Men (All of them, including Origins)

7. Memoirs of a Geisha

8. Harold and Kumar (Both)

9. Men in Black

10. Hellboy

These are in no particular order :)

1. Emily

2. Paige

3. Katie

4. Jasmine

5. Amanda

6. Haley

7. Mrs. B

8. Gabby

9. Brendan

10. Stephanie

Day One: List 10 people you trust the very most. 

Day Two: List 10 movies you never get tired of watching. 

Day Three: List 10 tv shows you miss from your childhood. 

Day Four: List 10 relatives you love being with. 

Day Five: List 10 songs you can’t stop listening to. 

Day Six: List 10 items you can’t go a day without. 

Day Seven: List 10 things you can do best at. 

Day Eight: List 10 of your favorite singers. 

Day Nine: List 10 of your favorite actors/actresses. 

Day Ten: List 10 of your imperfections/flaws. 

Day Eleven: List 10 incidents that happened this year. 

Day Twelve: List 10 people that could make you laugh ANYTIME. 

Day Thirteen: List 10 annoying songs. 

Day Fourteen: List 10 things about yourself. 

Day Fifteen: List 10 things you wouldn’t change about your life. 

Day Sixteen: List 10 things you WOULD change about your life.